At This Moment

At this moment, I am a woman learning about who I am and what I want from my life. I am a ten-year practicing lawyer. I am a student. I am a friend, girlfriend, daughter, sister, and aunt. I am curious. I am an athlete and also, a coach. I am anxious. I am Type A. I am a traveler, reader, bubble bather, sunset watcher, and writer. I am an empath. Sometimes, I am happy and sometimes, I am sad. I am growing. 

It is hard to say how I got to this point. How, at 34, I started questioning my "life plan". Through a pandemic and a lot of isolation, we have all been provided time, perhaps too much time, to think about our past, our present, and our future selves. I've considered what brings me the most joy. Here is what I know -  you do not have to do something just because you are good at it. You do not have to do something because you have the education, experience, and resources to do it. You also do not have to do something because it is expected from you. 

The truth is that to live your best, most fulfilled life, you can only do what aligns with your spirit and that may change in time. One day, you may be full of energy and ready to tackle a wildly stressful career because you are passionate about it. Ten years later, you may find that you have changed. Grown. You realize that you are not the person you were ten years prior and that your chosen career path no longer aligns with who you are as a person. That is life.

At this moment, I seek peace. 

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